Friday, November 14, 2008

Conflicted

Remember a month ago when I was all Bitter? Well..........

My mom called me last Friday and said Nikki's Dr couldn't find the baby's heartbeat, so she was going to go for an ultrasound on Monday or Tuesday (why not right away, I have no idea).

Well, it turned out that the baby passed at week 9, and she should have been at week 11. Nikki was scheduled to have a DNC on Thursday, but she ended up starting to pass it on Tuesday night/Wednesday morning about 3am. My mom went to the hospital with her while she had the procedure done.

Nikki is fine - she had to take 3 days off of work, and for the next 2 or 3 months isn't allowed to pick up anything heavier than 10lbs.

When I heard she had problems, OF COURSE I felt terrible for her. First because I accused her of getting pregnant on purpose (which I still don't know if it was or not), then for telling her I was not and could not be happy for her when she can't even pay her own bills! I would never have wanted her to have a miscarriage, but perhaps it was for the best. I mean, she still can't pay for her own bills, and both her and her boyfriend need to work full time. I know my parents would have had to either a) support them somehow, or b) provide daycare.

I talked to her for a bit last night, and she seemed okay. We're going to try to get together on Thanksgiving, since my mom has to work that day and we're not actually going to have our Thanksgiving dinner until Saturday. Perhaps we can resume our normal sibling relationship now. Only time will tell.

3 comments:

Paul J said...

my prayers for nikki.
she's at the top of my list now.

Heather said...

I hope everything works out ok.

YD's a little bit of everything place said...

Sorry to hear about your sister's miscarriage. Everything happened for a reason and maybe it's just not meant to be at this time yet.
Maybe she and her BF will take this time to really think about things before trying for another one. Life is not easy especially when trying to raise a little one.